A couple day ago I told myself that next time I'm eating alone at the student union I'll make a friend. Go up to a random stranger and meet someone new. Step out of my comfort zone. Today I sit here eating my makeshift salad staring into this sea of students and realize I am a coward and this is the reason I have no friends. I am a coward not because my lack of friends but because i refuse to take myself out my own misery. That saying "you are you own worst enemy" comes to mind. I am my own worst enemy. I limit myself and cant seem to step out of this box I seem to have placed myself in.
Another day, I tell myself. Another day I'll come up with the courage to go up to a stranger and meet them, broaden my horizons and let myself be the most vulnerable me. But that day will not be today.
Today's not a good day.
Cheers
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